Okay, so...
1) He still won't bother talking to me. Well, my Friend, as you wish. I am
DONE making the effort.
2) She's mad at me for never saying hi. Well, I would, mauka, but I don't, to see if you'd actually bother. Whatever. I really do not think you're worth the effort. Not after what you've done to me. And, if you're mad at me for not saying hi.. well, you haven't done it for longer than me, so yeah, I should be the one angry here.
Why am I always the one to do some effort?
3) Everything that has happened to me in the past year or two, it affected me... And no friggin' matter how much I try to become what I've been before, I just fail. Ugh, I guess I have to get back to that motivating book my Bro told me to read.
It's called "
The Power of your Sub-conscious Mind" by Joseph Murphy.
The events in my life have had an impact on me, some bigger than others.. And really, it's not it's direct effect. It's the conclusions I make because of those events. Self-polluting mind is well able to stop one from developing their (often strongly craved) skill / ability.
See, I used to be all nice and I often helped people. Something made me think that the right thing to do now is to shut myself in a shell and stay there. Well, I've never shared my problems, I prefer to think them through rather than make a fool of myself, but I've always been there when people needed me. Once they were alright they just turned their back on me... Well, I had no problem with that, I sure liked helping! But recently that one b..'khm, chick, instead of just turning her back on me, she disappeared for a while. Just for the bigger effect of surprise when she came back a small while later with a knife for my back. Well, guess what, bitch. I won't let you ruin me and my life. I am going to get back to where I was, but you.. Well, YOU can forget about me helping you. And really, why would you even want help from someone whom you've stabbed in their back? ESPECIALLY when that someone a) is a woman, and b) has problems with her temper and anger issues? I really wouldn't go there. The thing is, you won't read it. So you might just happen to give me the satisfaction of making your life miserable.
Umm, honestly, I hope you won't.
^ SEE what I mean by anger issues? No, I really wouldn't go that far. If I have a problem AND I have to see someone often, I'd just say it straight to their face... But since we don't have much to talk about... I'll just ignore you and hope you go as far away from me as you can. And no, I don't want you to get hurt, I just want you to fuck off. Yes, after what you've done to me, it's all I'm asking.
Here, it's all blank here.
Have a look at the bird,
See ya... sometime...soon.... (;
Hell yeah, Imma spam the heck outta y'all. (:
